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Post 209

You Me aur Hum…

Sorry, I have been away for a while… No particular reason, You could call it laziness, its not like i had nothing to write, trust me I had enough matters to pen down but for what ever reason never really got around to do so and as always, I had an excuse, work!!!  Anyway coming back to the point.. so here I am…

It is November 2011 finally..Which means in 18 days time I am getting married… Right yes, it is true I am indeed getting married.. Prithwish is back from his tantalising  business trip and yes,we are all set to tie the knot.. I mean almost…

Ok may be may be not.. I mean I love this man to bits there is no two ways to that   and I want to spend the rest of my life with him… I have so many plans for us together, so many dreams and all this while I had i had it figured, so I thought, but as they say life is not a SWOT analysis and you do not have an SOP..  I know I want it all with him, only thing is I am  not sure do I want it now, am  I ready for this, will i be able to handle it all, what ifs and if nots are the things that keep coming to my mind and I feel like withdrawing into some sort of a shell, hide my self and pretty much stay there.. I wish I had the luxury of doing so…

There is work that keeps you busy, with a monthly magazine, weekly news letter and other pending issues, most of my day goes in sorting them but then there are still 14 odd hours left and that gives me enough time to fret and worry… In short I am scared to my wits end and have been for sometime.. Have I spoken to Prithwish about it? Off course I have and we are sailing in the same boat trust me.. except he looks at it differently… He told me that yes, it will be a new setting,yes,we will make mistakes and no there will not be rainbows day after day but as long as we are together the rest will fall in to place.. Strangely, My daddy had said the same thing to Mum after their marriage and there’s have been one of the most happy and successful marriage i have known..interesting…

Last week there was a little ceremony a kind of puja at our place where in Prithwish had to be present  That is when I reaslised how important he is..This was done for our happy life… His presence him  holding my hand and promising that come what may I will stand by you.. that is what matters.  All this while I have been fretting but last Saturday when he stood by me and One look at his face, and my troubles seemed to take a back seat and I am assured that as long as we are together the rest will figure it self.. Yes,we will have our fights and bickering and yes, we will argue but then which happy marriage does not, at the end of the day what matters that we are together and when you wake up in the morning he will be there right by my side ( at least I hope he will be unless I do not drive him up the wall by then). So as I stood holding his hands, I could see a life time of adventures, action, drama, laughter and a lot of love and fear seemed to have lost its way completely… Life had never been this beautiful not to mention inviting….

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The Search
Being hopelessly love is a rather pain full affair …. You know it cannot be the way you want it.. But you are ever hope full that perhaps things will turn the way you have wished.. Then the days slip one by one and there is no sign of that turn of events… So what do you do? Throw yourself on the pillow, cry your heart out, beat your head, curse your fate, the thought of things slipping off is crippling. There is a desperate attempt to hold on to that last straw of hope but no such thing happens… The last act, you throw yourself at the hands of the Lord and pray like your life depended on it…But no luck… So what do you do? You hang your feelings, tell yourself something far better awaits you and never give up on your hope to find the one true love of your life… It awaits you in some corner in the world and it will eventually find you.. Then you start building your life on the new dreams, hopes and desires. Off course this does not guarantee that there won’t be any more heart breaks or heart aches.. But with every failure you either give up or more adamant that you will find your destiny…. This journey of discovering your true love, your destiny is a rather un even and rugged path and more of an up hill climb.. but as they say the climb to the summit is never easy though non the less rewarding…. The price you pay to eventually find your fate…. Now by true love I just do not refer to any individual, they include your dreams, your goal, your one true wish, your aspirations and any of them could complete that incomplete section of you… As for me it is a mix of all individual+dreams+goal+my aspirations+one true wish= Finding my destiny…. Discovering true love, holding on to it would complete me some day… Now that is something I am hopelessly hope full about !!!

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