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You Me aur Hum…

Sorry, I have been away for a while… No particular reason, You could call it laziness, its not like i had nothing to write, trust me I had enough matters to pen down but for what ever reason never really got around to do so and as always, I had an excuse, work!!!  Anyway coming back to the point.. so here I am…

It is November 2011 finally..Which means in 18 days time I am getting married… Right yes, it is true I am indeed getting married.. Prithwish is back from his tantalising  business trip and yes,we are all set to tie the knot.. I mean almost…

Ok may be may be not.. I mean I love this man to bits there is no two ways to that   and I want to spend the rest of my life with him… I have so many plans for us together, so many dreams and all this while I had i had it figured, so I thought, but as they say life is not a SWOT analysis and you do not have an SOP..  I know I want it all with him, only thing is I am  not sure do I want it now, am  I ready for this, will i be able to handle it all, what ifs and if nots are the things that keep coming to my mind and I feel like withdrawing into some sort of a shell, hide my self and pretty much stay there.. I wish I had the luxury of doing so…

There is work that keeps you busy, with a monthly magazine, weekly news letter and other pending issues, most of my day goes in sorting them but then there are still 14 odd hours left and that gives me enough time to fret and worry… In short I am scared to my wits end and have been for sometime.. Have I spoken to Prithwish about it? Off course I have and we are sailing in the same boat trust me.. except he looks at it differently… He told me that yes, it will be a new setting,yes,we will make mistakes and no there will not be rainbows day after day but as long as we are together the rest will fall in to place.. Strangely, My daddy had said the same thing to Mum after their marriage and there’s have been one of the most happy and successful marriage i have known..interesting…

Last week there was a little ceremony a kind of puja at our place where in Prithwish had to be present  That is when I reaslised how important he is..This was done for our happy life… His presence him  holding my hand and promising that come what may I will stand by you.. that is what matters.  All this while I have been fretting but last Saturday when he stood by me and One look at his face, and my troubles seemed to take a back seat and I am assured that as long as we are together the rest will figure it self.. Yes,we will have our fights and bickering and yes, we will argue but then which happy marriage does not, at the end of the day what matters that we are together and when you wake up in the morning he will be there right by my side ( at least I hope he will be unless I do not drive him up the wall by then). So as I stood holding his hands, I could see a life time of adventures, action, drama, laughter and a lot of love and fear seemed to have lost its way completely… Life had never been this beautiful not to mention inviting….


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It is very important that when you loose your faith there is someone to walk you through.. Well the last couple of years May has  been tough for me but I have been equally lucky to have people beside me to believe and trust in life and most important, in me.

This year it was my dear dear D.A… I do not what is it about him that you want to believe what he says. They are simple basic things, no high fly philosophical gibberish.  When i told him about my May syndrome; his simple advise was ” yes, things do not go right for you, but look at it as a mere co incidence and mostly have faith things will change, they ought to look up.” Now at the time he had said this I was  like he has no clue what I have been through and it is very easy to say sitting on the other side.. but honestly, I tell you this is the first time in many years when May has not directly affected me, well there are teething problems with life it is is always there but on the whole it  has been one of the smoothest in a long long time..

Now you might just call it co incidence but I look at it as the jinx has been broken and all thanks to D.A… He taught me to believe to have faith and most important he led me to trust that there is light at the end of the tunnel. To most what he did is nothing extraordinary but for me it was nothing less than a miracle to see this month pass so smoothly. What touched me was his sincere, selfless advice and the every now and then inquiry to check on me and my mood. Very few people do that in this day and age where we live  with this philosophy “every one for himself and God for us all.” His medical advise deserves a mention here as well 🙂

They say you cannot choose your family but you can choose your friend and I am so thankful to the Lord that I chose him. Rarely does a person com into my life and let me grow and develop in his philosophy and D.A. is one of them.. So far I have had just had one other person my Brat brother… But for D.A. whatever I say is not enough for all he did.. I am grateful he taught me to live, hope and believe in May, in myself and in Life.. I will not thank him, it would be an insult to his contribution, for thank you is not enough and if I were to start to say thank you now then I would have to say it a million times before I die because I a pretty sure this is first of his many Counseling and Medical Sessions with me…..

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