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You Me aur Hum…

Sorry, I have been away for a while… No particular reason, You could call it laziness, its not like i had nothing to write, trust me I had enough matters to pen down but for what ever reason never really got around to do so and as always, I had an excuse, work!!!  Anyway coming back to the point.. so here I am…

It is November 2011 finally..Which means in 18 days time I am getting married… Right yes, it is true I am indeed getting married.. Prithwish is back from his tantalising  business trip and yes,we are all set to tie the knot.. I mean almost…

Ok may be may be not.. I mean I love this man to bits there is no two ways to that   and I want to spend the rest of my life with him… I have so many plans for us together, so many dreams and all this while I had i had it figured, so I thought, but as they say life is not a SWOT analysis and you do not have an SOP..  I know I want it all with him, only thing is I am  not sure do I want it now, am  I ready for this, will i be able to handle it all, what ifs and if nots are the things that keep coming to my mind and I feel like withdrawing into some sort of a shell, hide my self and pretty much stay there.. I wish I had the luxury of doing so…

There is work that keeps you busy, with a monthly magazine, weekly news letter and other pending issues, most of my day goes in sorting them but then there are still 14 odd hours left and that gives me enough time to fret and worry… In short I am scared to my wits end and have been for sometime.. Have I spoken to Prithwish about it? Off course I have and we are sailing in the same boat trust me.. except he looks at it differently… He told me that yes, it will be a new setting,yes,we will make mistakes and no there will not be rainbows day after day but as long as we are together the rest will fall in to place.. Strangely, My daddy had said the same thing to Mum after their marriage and there’s have been one of the most happy and successful marriage i have known..interesting…

Last week there was a little ceremony a kind of puja at our place where in Prithwish had to be present  That is when I reaslised how important he is..This was done for our happy life… His presence him  holding my hand and promising that come what may I will stand by you.. that is what matters.  All this while I have been fretting but last Saturday when he stood by me and One look at his face, and my troubles seemed to take a back seat and I am assured that as long as we are together the rest will figure it self.. Yes,we will have our fights and bickering and yes, we will argue but then which happy marriage does not, at the end of the day what matters that we are together and when you wake up in the morning he will be there right by my side ( at least I hope he will be unless I do not drive him up the wall by then). So as I stood holding his hands, I could see a life time of adventures, action, drama, laughter and a lot of love and fear seemed to have lost its way completely… Life had never been this beautiful not to mention inviting….

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The Months that were.
Right, I am back after a fairly long hiatus.. The past two months have been so hectic, it is almost like being on a roller-coaster ride. On the professional front ; I changed jobs, got involved in a sector I had never explored and got my hands on a work plan, I never thought I would get involved in.. A student of Politics and History is now bringing out digital marketing year books, Working on Market research and producing E-commerce reports, coupled with the odd brand building procedure and formulating market projections to name a few. Not to say that I do not enjoy my current work area, it is just that I had never thought I would land up in such a scenario. Oh well, there is always a first time to everything and one has something or the other to learn from in terms of the work they do.  But I have a great working space, wonderful colleagues and a very helpful and clear cut Boss, so help is always a knock away. But the one not so good aspect of my current profile, probably the only bit that I don not enjoy is the eating out bit every odd day, now that kills my system not to mention the extra mile that I need to run on the treadmill.. The trials of the job.. 
On the family front.. Last month has been quite eventful..It started with my sisters’ birthdays, followed by my brother’s visit and a hope that he will finally make it to the alter. then off course it was dad’s birthday, the much awaited, eagerly expected Hyderabad trip and finally culminating with dad’s retirement. After 36 years of serving the Government and holding a fair bit of accolades, he closed shop on 30th of April.. 28 of which he had dedicated to the top intelligence agency of the country and suddenly, it seems it is an end of an era. But one good thing in this was, I got to see the National Police academy, where my dad was trained to adorn the IPS uniform and the responsibilities that came with it.. It was proud moment indeed, The Pass-out, the alma-mater, his better half and a very proud daughter.. The best thing in all this was, seeing my Grandfather’s name and my father’s name side by side as father and son, in the service of the nation….A priceless experience….
On the personal front.. things have taken a whole some shape, I met the man of my dreams, fell in love, I mean I am still in the process of falling in love but, you know it is this wonderful feeling, you feel wanted, loved and there is a tremendous satisfaction..You know he is there, he is looking over you and you have so much love to turn to, that sometimes you wonder whether you at all deserve it.. For me, my man Prithwish, is just the most amazing thing that has ever happened to me.. His kind and loving nature, his ever smiling face and his perpetual assurance that things will fall in place and all will be well, is an immense sense of relief coupled with the reassurance that no matter what happens, when ever I turn around, he will be there waiting for me, looking out for me and ever willing helping hand.. While I had always wished that I would some day fall in love with a man of similar qualities, I had never hoped that such a thing would happen and that such men were a figment of my imagination.. I know it is still too early, and Prithwish and I have a long road ahead, there will be ups and downs, rights and wrongs, yeses and nos, but as they say morning shows the day, the indications are good and for once I am hopeful that as long as we are together, the rest will eventually fall in place.. It is a life time of commitments, adjustments and endurance and I for once am totally convinced that this is what I want and this is where I am meant to be.. I have no qualms in admitting that I am hopelessly in love with this man, not for the sake of love, but for the man he is and for the life we  would have together.. So yes, it is indeed a wonderful feeling to love to adore, to be loved and to be adored by a man who means the world to you..
I could not find a better song than this to describe my love and dedication for this lovely man 🙂



All in all it is has been an eventful couple of months.. For the first time I am not skeptical about the Month of May as I have always been, given due to past incidents.. For the first time I feel this jinx might just be broken and a start to something fresh and happy.. Though I still keep my fingers crossed.. just so that I can be sure… But it is good to be back!!!!  

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A Start of a New Journey… Together

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Happy Birthday my darling… Oh how I wished I was with you.. I missed you more than ever. How  I would have cradled you held you and wished you over a million times. The very thought of you in a distant land, away from your family, from your love from the life you have known.. It wrenches my heart to think that this Birthday you would have spent wondering and reflecting on all the Birthdays that you spent with loved ones.. Yes, I know we are not children anymore but the thing is no matter how old you get, this is one day when you wish you were treated like a priced pampered child.. this does not change really… 

Yes, you return in 2 day’s time and the celebration continues from then on.. and perhaps for all the Birthdays to come in this lifetime.. Nonetheless, the sadness of that day of being alone lingers on….. Darling I know how hard it is… But then again as I whimper by myself, I cannot help but not think of all that is yet to come and all that we are yet to share.. Suddenly, in all this sadness there is a sense of hope and there is assurance that this life, what ever may come, it will be a one long wonderful journey with all its ups and downs, a road well traveled with you by my side…

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